Rambling Thoughts

I've realized I did not blog about my holidays but nonetheless, its fun! Going out for party, skating and yum-chaing with friends. So overall, I did enjoy myself especially on Saturday when I went to Pavillion with my girls and the guys to watch KUNG FU PANDA! Yes, a must-watch show. You will laugh your ass off every single minute in the show. Don't miss it *winks*

School reopen and just on the FIRST day, I'm already dead busy. Why is my life always filled with busy-ness? So much to do, so little time. *sigh*
How I wish holidays could last longer so I would not 'enjoy' the wrath of school. Its the moment of doom to face the examinations' results. For these 2 days, I've got my English, History, Physics, Maths & Accounts. I'm quite proud with the results I've get, at least its all A1. And most of all, I've got 100 in Maths & Accounts!!!! OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG! 1st time in my life! I really thanked God for the results I've obtain.
All glory goes to Him =)

Lately, I've been feeling emo. To be more specific, quite lonely. I don't know why I just feel so left out in anywhere. I just don feel belong to any place. Not even in my cheer team, my youth group and among the prefects. Although I have my friends, but sometimes I don't feel like I'm one of them. Is like I have friends, but not close best friends. Even my handphone seems dead without a call or a sms. I just want someone who constantly......I don' know.... make me feel belong and less lonely? Someone who I can voice out how I truly feel? Just someone who really wants me to be with them. Especially after what had happen, after I rejected someone's companion, I feel so lonely. Yes, that person maybe the best friend I ever had and the only one who 24 hours keep me company, made me feel alive. But it's just wrong to use that person's love for me to fill in the loneliness in me. If that person wouldn't mind to be just friend, I would have love to be your best friend. Now, it just seems impossible.
I've always been jealous with other clique of friends who always seem so close and to be with each other every time. Like going for recess, they would wait for each other and eat together. Maybe that's why I would always do many many things to keep myself busy so that I would not think that I'm lonely. But the fact is the fact. Life is just like that.

I just wish for someone's hug right now.

P.S : I miss you =X