I'm Happy =)

WAHAHAHAHAHA! My blog is so freaking dead. Been really super busy (and actually lazy) to update my blog. If I can find a time, I really gonna update how 2010 has treated me so far.

Still working and I'm curi tulang-ing to blog a lil while. BECAUSE I CANNOT STAND THIS JOB!
If I don't find something else to do, I will die of boredom!

Now all I can say is that I AM FREAKING HAPPY & BLESSED! =D

P.s : I miss you lots <3

Knee pain!

Since the day of that very torturous training from Joel, my knee has been hurting like crazy and I am limping like an old lady. At 1st my knee was just skin peeling off. Then slowly it became a disgusting wound where I think blood started to clot. But not the whole part, so there are certain parts that bleed. And it freaking hurt real bad!

And everytime I have to go up and down stairs at home and in the office. Those were the time I really wish someone would carry me up. If only there are those tall big strong muscular handsome man waiting by the stairs just to carry me up.. Aaaahhh =)

But now, how am I GONNA DANCE WITH THIS KNEE!!??

I'm gonna back up Liang in his performance in JB. We gonna be staying in a suite! *screamss*

And it's gonna be the family who are going. Mummy, daddy and Aaron! =D It will be like an awesome family trip. Hahahaha! If only 1 extra person could go =p But I'm really wondering if I could dance. Should I back up early? Or just give it a try anyway? Arrggghh! Stupid knee. Everybody else gets the same training as I do but mine wounded the worst. I wonder why!?

Is my physical condition that bad? Did I use the wrong technique? Am I actually able to know how to become a better dancer? Answers that I seriously need to find out...

Monday Blues!

After working on a Monday in an office, I finally know what 'Monday Blues' really mean. I was just so sleepy and my mind is drifted away and away to Lalaland. I type as slow as I can so that I don't have to make phone calls. Those DUU DUUU sounds are making me even more sleepy. And the time passes EXTREMELY SLOW! As I wait for time to pass, I look forward to my lunch break.

And after lunch break, I look forward to the time I go back. And when I really wanna go back so much, I am caught up in a jam. It felt worse because it was right after the weekends where I don't have to wake up so early and can enjoy doing things I love doing.

No wonder Mondays sucks!

Resurrected!

Finally I decided to resurrect my blog. Hahaha! I'm such a lazy person. I wanted to create a whole new blog but thinking about the process and everything is just so..... mood-killing!

So I decided to vent my feelings in my old blog instead. Partly because I can see back the old posts and actually laugh back and to reflect on my past.

A new year in 2010 and I can already feel the changes. It's not bad but it's not all that good either. Nevertheless, change is vital in a life-growing process. So now in 2010, I am just waiting to be legal and to embark on a whole new beginning.

Currently, I'm working as a telemarketer in my Mom's office, VIP Resources doing all these calling to big corporate companies to invite them to Blue Ocean Strategy Seminar. It's a damn awesome experience. It's not the best job in the world and the pay is just reasonable, but I definitely learn a lot. And it gives me the idea of how a corporate world is like. At least it's something relevant to me since it's most probably related to what I wanna do in the future.

So I will be working till end of March, and then I'll start confusing myself again on what my future paths will be.

Passion In Dancing

We just had a 'Happy Feet Meeting' and I'm really glad we are kinda going to the next level. Of course we are not good enough yet but we are going to join an international dance competition in Penang right after SPM! That is like so awesome! =D

I can finally enjoy with all of them in Penang for 5 days. Of course the main purpose is to gain more experience and get the chance to see good teams in dancing. Especially knowing Team Vibe is also competing, is really a big deal to us. This is like the most happening thing for Happy Feets. So the humans who joining are me, Aaron, Pei Hua, Vyon, Yoke Junn, Vincent, Xin Ee and Eusen (Not sure who is he yet) with Doris and Jerry coming along to be with us.

For me this is really huge and my passion in dancing is growing deeper and deeper. So from now onwards to the competition, I really need to work super duper hard to improve myself. I cannot just train once a week, but train my body everyday to be 'seasoned'.

Now I really can't wait for SPM to be over =)

Exams Season

2 days of trials passed. Have I started off well? I really don't know. I just don't have that confidence anymore to take the papers. There are just something bothering inside me and no one can understands.

"I commit my Trials into your hand Lord!"

Ugh, I hate it when she go all up that mood again. Simply commenting others without looking at herself in the mirror. It's just annoying! I don't bother to care about her moods anymore since she doesn't care about mine.

Back to Chemistry. Need to kill it!

The lazy pig is still alive!

I'm not officially dead yet. Maybe soon from SPM? I'm just turning into a lazy pig who can't be bothered to update my own blog. Heck, I can't even be bothered of doing ANYTHING at all. This is bad. Real bad.

I miss BIG FEAST with them =)

Personality Test

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Desire of a new start

Holidays is coming and I promise myself that my plans will consist only about my wonderful dates with books. A whole week of private tutoring with Physics. Awesome holiday right?

I have been talking with a friend telling out my feelings from my heart. True enough, I can't wait to graduate from high school. It's not that I hate school a lot. It's just that I want to have a new start, a new life, a new experience. Whenever you are still in high school, your life basically revolves around it and I definitely have good but bad memories in it too. The ultimate reason is that I want to delete that embarrassing and the worse mistake I have made in my life which I regretted so so so much. Thinking about it just makes me so shameful. And I don't know why but this year I definitely have many obstacles to go through and I keep making mistakes over and over and over again.

Once I graduated from high school, those familiar faces and surroundings won't haunt me again about my past that I am trying so HARD to let go. I just don't wanna be put through all these again. One good thing about high school is that you can make mistakes and learn from it. I have definitely go through and learn a lot. Now I really need God's strength to put me up again and start over and stop making mistakes.

SPM Trials are coming near and I should start studying. FREAKING OUT DOHH!

Birthdays Dedications =)

Hooi Weng Kiat has finally turn 20! Happy Birthday pretty boy =p

I am seriously glad I get to know you better from the B&P Conference. That's when our 'sam si' night starts. Hehehehe and without it, we definitely won't be as close as we are now. You were always there for me especially when I'm going through my roughest times. Every night you would call me so that I won't go through an emo and lonely night. When I'm sad, down or troubled, you are there to listen to my complaints and frustrations. And most importantly, you always remind me that you and GOD will always be there for me no matter what.

Thank you buddy for everything and I will never forget you in my prayers =D
Let's have fun and enjoy kao kao on this WENG KIAT's DAY! Weeeeeeeeee...!!!!
Love you lots *hugs*

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Just in case that I do not blog again tomorrow.



Happy 21st Birthday MEI ZHI aka My Future-Sis-In-Law!

I believe that we actually got closer because of my brother right? Hahahaha. So i know the best birthday present for you is definitely LESLIE LIAN! So now I'll officially giving him to you and you can take and use him whenever you want =p


P.S : I realized I'm changing. But I don't know its for the better or worse....

A Supreme Act of Boredom!

Got tag by Andrianna. So I decided to do it. AS YOUR BIRTHDAY ANDRIANNA! =p

abc’s ShareRULES : Once you’ve been tagged, you are supposed to copy-paste this note, and answer all the questions. At the end, choose 10 people to be tagged – including the person who tagged you.

ABC ABOUT YOU QUESTIONS:
A – Available: Yes
B – BIRTHDAY: 11th April =)
C – CRUSHING ON: My SPM text books...
D – DRINK YOU LAST HAD: 100 Plus
E – EASIEST PERSON TO TALK TO: The Lylas =D
F – FAVORITE SONG: I Stay In Love - Mariah Carey
G – GUMMY BEARS OR GUMMY WORMS: Gummy worms!
H – HOMETOWN: Born in KL, Grow in Kepong.
I – IN LOVE WITH: DANCING!!
J – JUGGLE: No?
K – KILLED SOMEONE: No way!
L – LONGEST CAR RIDE: Err... Can't remember. I know its to Redang.
M - MILKSHAKE FLAVOR: Chocolate.
N – NUMBER OF SIBLINGS: 2!
O – ONE WISH: Straight A1's in SPM *Please, God! *
P – PERSON YOU CALLED LAST: My brother.
R – REASON TO SMILE: Being stress-free =)
S - SONG YOU LAST HEARD: Toy Soldier - Britney Spears *My blog song is on ALWAYS*
T – TIME YOU WOKE UP: 6.00AM then sleep again then wake up again at 630 =p
U – UNDERWEAR COLOR/PATTERN: A secret that girls shall never reveal =p
V – VEGETABLE(S): Anything green. I'm healthy.
W – WORST HABIT: Procrastinating!!
X – X-RAYS YOU’VE HAD: None.
Y – YOYOS ARE: round? LOL
Z – ZODIAC SIGN: Aries.

Random Questions
· About YouSpell your name without vowels: STHR
· What color do you wear most?: I really have no idea.
· Least favorite color?: Brown
· What are you listening to?: Nothing at the moment.
· Are you happy with your life right now?: Definitely! Loving it to the max =)
· What is your favorite class in school?: Mathematics.
· When do you start back at school/college?: Monday. TGIF!
· Least Favorite pair of shoes?: Err.. None...
· Where do you wish you were right now?: On my bed sleeping..

THE CANS:
· Can you dance?: YES!
· Can you tie a cherry stem with you mouth?: LOL Noooo
· Can you whistle?: I believe I can. Hehe
· Write with both hands?: No, a righty.
· Walk with your toes curled?: Yea I have good balance.

THE DO’S:
· Do you believe there is life on other planets?: No I don't.
· Do you believe in miracles?: Yes I do!
· Do you believe in magic?: Nope
· Love at first sight?: Never.
· Do you believe in Satan?: Yes, and he's real.
· Do you believe in Santa?: No
· Do you know how to swim?: Yes! But I haven't been swimming for quite a while now.
· Do you like roller coasters?: Yeah. Who doesn't??
· Do you think you could handle the stuff they eat on those reality shows?: No, I'll puke!

THE HAVES:
· Have you ever been on a plane?: Yes, last year Dec.
· Have you ever asked someone out?: Nope, I'll wait for someone to do that =p
· Have you ever been asked out by someone: Yes =)
· Have you ever been to the ocean?: Yes!
· Have you ever painted your nails?: Yes of course.

THE WHATS:
· What is the temperature outside?: I don't know. Hot?
· What radio station do you listen to?: Hitz. fm, Fly FM
· What was the last restaurant you ate at?: Italian Cone Pizza
· What was the last thing you bought?: My AWESOME AVIA SHOE! =D
· What was the last thing on TV you watched?: Cheer 2009.

THE WHOS:
· Who was the last person you IM’d?: Voooonn!
· Who was the last person you took a picture of?: The Lylas again.
· Who was the last person you said I love you to?: You.

CRYING SECTION:
· Ever really cried your heart out?: Yes, real bad...
· Ever cried yourself to sleep?: Always. Crying is sooo tiring!
· Ever cried on your friend’s shoulder?: Yes. I have good friends =)
· Ever cried over the opposite sex?: Nope.
· Do you cry when you get an injury?: Nahhh..
· Do certain songs make you cry?: No but it could make me emo.
· Are you a happy person?: Yes =D
· What can make you happy?: DANCING! Without fail.
· Do you wish you were happier?: Of course!
· Can music make you happy?: Not really.

LOVE SECTION.
· How many times have you had your heart broken?: Twice.
· Have you ever loved someone so much that you’d die for them?: No. Only Jesus will do so =)

LOOK AT ME.
· What is your current hair color?: Black.
· Current piercings?: 0
· Have any tattoos?: None
· Eye color?: Dark Brown =)

IN A BOY/GIRL:
· Favorite eye color: Brown with glint in his eyes.
· Short or long hair: Short
· Height: As long you are taller than me.
· Best clothing: Anything that compliments him.

HAVE YOU EVER
· Been to jail: No, and never will.
· Laughed so hard you cried?: Yes!
· Cried in school: Yes =(
· Thrown up in a store: Nope nope.
· Done something really stupid that you still laugh at today: Many! XD
· Gone skinny dipping: Nooo..
· Pepsi or Coke: None. I don't drink carbonated drinks.
· McDonald’s or Burger King: McDonalds!
· Single or Group Dates: Single
· Chocolate or Vanilla: Chocolate!
· Strawberries or Blueberries: Strawberries.
· Meat or Veggies: Meat
· TV or Movie: Movies.
· Guitar or Drums?: Drums
· Adidas or Nike: Nike.
· Chinese or Mexican: Chinese
· Cheerios or Corn Flakes: Cheerios
· Cake or Pie: Cake

Wow that's a very long tag! I shall save everyone else from doing this so I ain't tagging anybody =p

See I told you that my blog is left abandoned again. I know myself tooooo well =p

I know this is a bit too late but this post is dedicated to my BEST BESTIES in the world!

The Awesomeness Amanda Tan Ying Ying
&

The Wonderful Cecilia Cho Wei Ling!

Just 1 more year to be legal! It rocks being 17 and I'm glad we are still best friends till now =)
The best present u guys will ever have is MEEEEEEE!! LOL
I just wanna say that as we grow older, I hope we can still celebrate birthdays together as BFF. Nothing beats LYLAS night out and camwhoring the whole time. XD
You know I love you. xoxo

Lylas Forever <3

P.S : I'll try to UPDATE as much as possible ok? =p
P.S.S : Cecilia, I want PICSSS!

I have sooooo many things to blog about. But I had a long day today and I'm really sleepy. So I guess I have to procrastinate again. Hopefully just until tomorrow. But knowing myself, I don't think I'll procrastinate that short. Haha. Just wait and see then.

My dear brother in Australia. Although we were not the best siblings we can be.
But I missed him already.
Take care in Australia! =)

Blogging Craving Part 2 & Cheerleading

While I'm still in the mood of blogging, I might as well blog as much I can before I start abandoning my blog again. It's just so colourful man! I don't know why but I love it =)
THANK YOU CECILIA FOR YOUR HELP IN THIS BLOG! LYLAS STYLE MAN!
It's in pink for you, babe.
Maybe in August will be dead again since my trials are coming! I've been so busy that I really neglected my studies. I wonder if I could ever catch up again.

Currently I'm busy-ing about the Mighty Minds Competition this Saturday. I totally forgot that I joined until after Cheer when I look back at my planner. Maths, Science & General Knowledge. I doubt myself man! LOL! Today when Mei Yeen, Pei Ling & I stayed back to do a lil revision, going through Wikipedia for general knowledge, that's when I realize how ignorant, stupid I am. I don't even have a damn single general knowledge in my brain. Really need to upgrade myself especially being with Mei Yeen & Pei Ling. Sounds nerdy huh? :p It's not wrong wanting to be smart.

July is coming to an end. That means no more cheer for me..... My parents won't allow me to join anymore next year as they think its sooo freaking 'dangerous'. At least they didn't completely stop me from dancing. But cheerleading is really something different. All the dances, the tumblings, the jumps, the stunts, the splits, and the perky smiley faces! =D

My last debut as a cheerleader =)

It's been 5 years now. Since 2005 I've went for Cheer Competition.
I'm gonna miss those butterflies in my stomach before I compete.
Here are the videos of Sellors in Cheer Competition.
I couldn't find 2005 so gonna start off with 2006. Enjoy :)


2006 - 2nd runner up!


2007 - 8th


2008 - 18th


2008 C3 - Best Dressed


2009 - 18th

Blogging Craving

I can't stop going into my blog. It's just so... COLOURFUL! XD

A Whole New Beginning

So I guess I finally have that motivation to blog again. I don't know what push me either. But maybe, I felt like expressing myself again. Trying to be the old me. I know for a quite while I have been an emo Esther and my friends wants to see my happy self again. So that's why, my blog is freaking colourful! Just to show you how happy I am now. :)

Finally all my stress and problems are gone, I can just breathe again! So hopefully I'll be as crappy as I can again. Wakakakakakakakaka....! Been spending my whole day editing this blog.
Too tired to blog any longer. Have to go off and get ready for The Mighty Minds Competition this Saturday. *GULPS*
Shall update more next time. Toodles~

I MISSSSSSSSS THE NKF CHARITY CONCERT! =(

I know I still miss you a lot but you will only stay in my heart as my sweetest memories ever.

This will be the last post from me until I have that drive again to blog.

There are just so many things happening in my life currently. Honestly saying, I cannot take it anymore. The hurt, the pain, the stress, the worries. It's too much. As much as you can see that I'm trying to stay strong, I'm slowly slipping apart. My friends said I've changed. I'm starting to get a little quieter. Not as crazy as last time anymore. I just need time to be myself again. So it's best to leave me alone some time.

So for now, I won't blog anymore or reply my tags. Don't bother to come to this blog again because I will private it and only open this blog again until I really do have that motivation to blog again. Now I just have to stay strong to focus on what is much more important in my life.

Yea... That's it.

Its Wednesday now.....

I feel like I have so many things to do and yet so little time. Maybe it's because I'm wasting my time on unnecessary stuffs. The person I'm used to be so close with seems to be far away. I don't know why but it seems like we can't click anymore. Why?

Sometimes, I just can't be bothered about it anymore.

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OH OH OH!
Sellors is out in the Star today.
Everybody go check it out! =)))

So the holidays finally begun! I still have 12 more days left so I better treasure the time I have left. Its the only break I'll have, and the only time to catch up in my studies.
SPM MAN! DON'T PLAY PLAY!

On the 1st day of holidays, I went off to B&P Conference in port Dickson. At 1st I was not really looking forward to it due to something happen. But beach is truly the medicine to the soul. Most importantly, is the existence of my wonderful friends and God is always there for me. =)
So I promise, I shall accept the fact and learn to be stronger. Of course, I will still fall but I believe my friends and God will never give up on me.

The youths are amazing especially when I get to meet old friends, get closer with them and get to know super cool new friends.


I'm glad they can come with me. =)
Totally rock the whole camp and I hope God touches their heart as how He touches mine.

And the best of all, JESUS CHRIST IS THERE IN THE CAMP!


As always, I love the beach.
Best medicine to my soul =D

So, I will learn to love myself more.
"You are God precious child, no one should hurt you"

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5sc4 class trip to Genting is awesome! =)

Aduiiii... Its exam season! So obviously I won't be blogging. Duhhhh....!

The truth is that I seriously can't find the time and motivation to blog anymore. I'll probably blog like after exams, or maybe after cheer, or maybe after SPM? Haha. Will see will see =p

So now I shall just plurk! Haha. Thanks to Cecilia with her Plurk obsession. But most probably I'll be like getting negative karma! XD
At least its a lil update/news about me.

So wish me all the best. I'm off to date my books. Hopefully I won't doze off...